This could possibly be the HARDEST thing for me to figure out.. Why? Because I want to be EVERYTHING! It kind of sucks, because some days I want to be a chemist (you know, what I’m going to graduate school for) then other days I want to be something so off the wall that I wonder why I’m in graduate school in the first place.
Let us start with a few things that I’ve WANTED to be, but have decided that they aren’t for me.
1. A Nurse Practitioner: This was when I really wanted to be a doctor but was sure that I wasn’t going to get into medical school.. So I decided that if I became a NP that I’d be able to do what I want without having to actually go to medical school.
2. A ‘real’ Doctor: After graduate school I’ll ‘technically’ be a doctor, but not an MD. I’ve wanted to a doctor up until about Junior year of college, then I realized that while I do ok with the sight of blood but that seeing a little kid screaming in pain while a doc pulls rocks out of his arm (saw this while doing volunteer work in high school) doesn’t really sit well with me.. Some part of me still wants to be a doctor, but it’s not something I’m passionate enough about to be able to go to school for it.
3. A High School Teacher: I even took classes in college to be a teacher.. While now I think I might be able to do college level (the perks of having a PhD post grad school!) I know that I wouldn’t be able to handle being a high school teacher.. Well, more like I don’t think I want to deal with all of those hormones!
4. A Chemical Engineer: This was a brief thought.. I was a ChemE major when I started college.. It was mostly because I didn’t want to be Chem or Math or Bio major when I was pre-med, but I think for a little bit it crossed my mind to go into the field.. That, of course, was until one of my ChemE prof’s was a jerk to me and told me that I should KNOW the stuff that he was supposed to be TEACHING us.. Yea.. that’s why I dropped that major!
Ok.. So that’s some of the things that I’ve flirted with being but have decided for one reason or another that it’s not for me.. So what do I still want to be? Well that depends on the day.. and what sucks is that they all require going back to school.. but hey, you only get one life right?! So after getting my PhD one of these might just be what I go for..
1. A Chef: Why? Because I really love cooking and would love to do it on a professional level.. While I’m paleo which might be a hard concept for some to grasp, it doesn’t mean that I wouldn’t cook some pasta or add a side of bread to someone’s dish.. It just means that I wouldn’t try it before sending it out.. I think being a chef would be more of a hobby for me, however.. I LOVE to cook, but I’m not sure how well I’d doing being FORCED to cook for others.
2. A Personal Trainer: Ok, this is something that I want to do but know that I will never do.. Not unless it’s wrapped in with something else.. OR if I could land a sweet gig like Chris Powell, then I would definitely do it! I think this would be something I’d like to do if I could tie it in with…
3. A Nutrition Consultant/Dietitian: Now this is something that I’ve really looked into doing.. Like, I’ve thought “after graduate school I wouldn’t mind going back to school to be this” type of thought.. While MORE school seems almost silly.. I want to make sure that I’m doing something that I LOVE, and while chemistry MIGHT be it.. I’m not going to say no to school after school just because I don’t want to take more classes.. I mean, I really do love learning!
4. A Chemist: I’m not so sure how this one would work out.. I’m not sure if I’m cut out to work in academia (aka: be the prof that thinks up all of the stuff for research), and I’m also not sure if I’m someone that would be able to work in industry doing chemistry.. BUT that’s not to say that I wouldn’t be able to find a job after graduate school that sounds all sorts of interesting to me in the field of chemistry!
5. A ‘Lecturer’: In line with #4, I don’t think I could be a ‘professor’ because I think I could ever be the person that dreams up the research.. BUT I think that I’d enjoy teaching at the college level.. That being said, I know that half of my classes wouldn’t give two hoots about the class, and I’m not sure that I’d be able to stand that either.
6. A Post-Doc: This is an option post graduate school, but mostly only if I decided that I want to be a professor.. And by that time maybe I’ll actually want to be a professor.. but being a post-doc means that I might have to leave the state (or country) for two years as a post-doc, and I’m not to sure that I’d be willing to do that either… BUT if I really want to be a professor (or just want more chemistry experience) then I will in no way say no to it! Just might be a hard two years away from home..
SO.. This is a tough spot for me to be in.. mostly because I’m in a graduate program and while most people know what they want to do when they finish, I have NOOOOO idea! Makes it kind of scary because I might be going back to school after getting my PhD.. I’m not sure and I have four years to figure it out so I’m not too worried yet.. I just need to get my PhD in ~4 years and only worry about what I’m going to do afterwards in the last ~6months of being here!
Thanks of listening to my rant! If you guys stayed with me though the whole thing you deserve a round of applause!! **CLAP CLAP CLAP**
Have a great Monday everyone!!!